Letter from Pokerchix to Railbirds

Pokerchix posted this on myspace for Railbirds:

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Open letter to Railbirds

I just want to clear something up that I have been reading on Railbirds.

First off - There was NOTHING in PM that went on between me and the other ProRailer. I received 1 message from captm. telling me he did not lock my blog, then I received 2 messages from HH...1 was after my second blog stating "We do not owe you anything, cool down"...and the second message came right afterwards which was labled *Warning and some other words pulled from the Terms of Use. THAT was the ONLY communication I received from ANY Prorailer.

I even responded back to the message that was labeled *Warning*..... I received no reply back.

Second - I was NOT trying to cause ANY problems. I was upset because they locked a blog of mine and did not notify me of why it was locked. Then when I posted a blog asking why...I get locked AGAIN!!

I HAVE NEVER HAD A BLOG LOCKED DOWN!! I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO THE HELL OR WHAT THE HELL A PRORAILER WAS UNTIL NOW!!!!

This blog they locked was NO different than ANY blog you see on there everyday. For example I am looking a blog now titled "What kind of IDIOT does this.." I am also looking at a blog called "People with low self esteem"...and yet another titled "whining..drama...rigged"...and another one just went up called "PISSEDDDDDDDD" and it is a bad beat hand..JUST LIKE MINE and they call someone a donkey...PLUS show their names!! ATLEAST I X'ED OUT THE NAMES!!

There is plenty of these blogs yet they do not get locked and people continue to abuse the Terms of Use without any type of ban like I received.

Third - I saw 2..yes TWO Railbirds get in an open verbal "attack" with a ProRail and they banned that person for an HOUR and another did not EVEN get banned...but yet I am banned for however long they decide.

If you read in my blog titled "Question again for a prorail" you will see where I tell HH I am not trying to cause him any problems....I WAS JUST LOOKING FOR ANSWERS!! But if you read the comments in that blog I really do not get any real straight answers...I get something copied and pasted from the Terms Of Use and a few choice words from a ProRailer...and then the blog is locked.

If you read the blog that Sires posted during this time I commented how hard it must be to be a ProRailer...but yet I feel as though I have been banned as the Black Witch and all this is my fault.

I see people posting under the blog titled "HH's message" and some think I am "mental?"....others say I posted the original blog to make someone look bad? How is that when I x's out the names? I made certain I did not mention names for a reason and that was not to call someone out on their donkey style of play.

Was it my responsibility to PM a Prorailer and ask why my blog was locked? I didn't even realize it was locked till someone told me????

I accepted HH locking the original blog...I stated that in the second blog...that was not the issue...but I will not accept what has happened afterwards and what continues to happen.

I don't even know why I am posting this blog on this site because what does it really matter. They have me labeled as a "hater" ...pfft...some don't even understand I have done the same job as a ProRailer so I would be the last person to "diss" someone for locking a blog down they felt did not follow their Terms of Use. You can ask larry1dart of how we originally met and what forum I was on...THAT was where I was a "prorailer"

But do I feel as though I was treated unfairly? You bet I do. I have seen so much worse said and done on that site in the 1 month I have been there and to put this turmoil on my shoulders is wrong.

I met some great people on that site and that is who I will miss the most...but I also have seen some friends I thought I had totally diss me and misunderstand what this whole mess was about. I was not trying to hate on a ProRailer...I was trying to get an answer or atleast some type of "professional" communication with ANYBODY that could help me see what I DID WRONG!

Trust me...I adhere to rules and I fully accept my responsiblity in my actions in this case. It is ashame that others can not do the same.

I am sure HH and the other ProRailers are great people, but unfortantly I received the brunt of these actions/frustrations of someone trying to make a point.

And to say I was someone "popular"? I have only been there a month. How the hell can I be popular? It was not about popularity that a handful of Railbirds out of 40K got upset...it was the facts or reasons of why the ban happened in the first place.

Would I go back to Railbirds? I am to embarrassed to go back. I have been made out as some lunatic that went off on a ProRailer or someone that does not appreciate what they do...

I was not there to cause problems...I was there to blog...I didn't even know about Freerolls or all the Private Tournaments these members hosted when I signed up...I just saw a cool place to blog and possibly get my writings read by poker players. People I THOUGHT understood what a bad beat was, what frustration was, how playing poker can make you just as crazy as the man on the subway talking to himself.

But I was wrong....I stumbled across a place where everybody thinks this game of poker is suppose to bring out the best in people. I see a few say "people need to get a thick skin and accept the bad beats".....well...I have extremely thick skin and have accepted bad beats from Atlantic City to California...but you still get frustrated...and I thought I could express myself by blogging on this particular site and other poker players would understand......I had no idea I would be hung from a tree and burned.